“A pulse of unfinished business…” ~ Sara Zarr.
I’m participating in the weekly ‘Just Write’ challenge from Becky Tsaros Dickson and Laura Conant Howard. Want to participate, also? You have until Friday! Check out Becky’s post.
She felt his hand in hers as she climbed her way out of the last cottony dredges of the deepest sleep she’d had in years.
‘Good morning, Starshine,’ he said quietly. She smiled inside, knowing he was waiting for her usual response. But she wasn’t ready for the world.
He leaned close to kiss her, stopping just at the moment of contact, the space between their lips, swollen and warm from sleep, aching to touch.
She could see the questioning look in his eyes, but didn’t have it in her to lean in to him. Avoiding his gaze, she drew her eyes to the ragged edges of her nails.
“Damn, I need a manicure,’ she replied to his non-kiss, as if that meaningless sentence carried any weight. She supposed it did — the pulse of unfinished business coursing in snaps against their skin.
He sighed, the kind of sigh that carries the gravity of everything he couldn’t, wouldn’t say. Her mind knew he needed her to open up, but her heart kept that heavy door firmly shut.
As she squeezed her eyes tight against the image as it slammed into her, the song ‘Hopelessly Devoted To You,’ inexplicably popped into her head. Schmaltzy lyrics, insipid tune. Yet…yet.
As he stripped off his pajama bottoms, his body firmly muscled and tan from their recent beach vacation, tears sprang to her eyes. She didn’t know if she deserved this loving man. She didn’t know much of anything.
Hurting someone so hopefully devoted to her, who would lasso the moon if she asked him to, made her feel cowardly. But she couldn’t be brave. Not anymore.
Closing her eyes, sleep bearing down heavily, she gave in to the weight of bravery.
A weight too hard to bear.
I loved this challenge because I followed Becky’s instructions: ‘don’t think, just write..’ It’s hard for writers to do that — our internal editor tends to take over. I encourage you to participate and hope you’ll check out Becky and Laura’s work and blogs. Both are incredibly talented.
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