I’m beyond thrilled to introduce to my blog Kindle bestselling author Toby Neal! Her eBook Blood Orchids is FREE today on Amazon (remember, no Kindle required) and I can honestly say I’m enjoying this extremely well-written and fast moving book so much I’ve ignored almost (but not quite) everything else this past weekend. My family is not pleased.
As I do with all my guests, I challenged Toby to dig deep and share something real and honest from her life. After a few back and forth emails, she surprised me with a level of honesty that blew me away. I couldn’t be more proud and I’m honored and moved to present her story to you here today. I have chills just writing this. Toby, you have touched me with your loving soul and all your do for the people in your life through your work and words.
SURVIVOR: A THRIVER SPEAKS
My mother-in-law was the first person to say, “I feel like I hardly know you,” after she read Blood Orchids, my debut crime novel.
She won’t be the last.
Blood Orchids deals with gritty subjects- rape, abuse, and child molestation. Sounds like fun, huh? And to be honest, when I think I’m going to read something that drags me through the gutter of human experience, I don’t want to go there. I read to be entertained, to escape—and to see bad guys get their just desserts.
The other question I’ve been getting is pretty damn personal—“Were you a sexual abuse survivor?”
Up until now I’ve dodged it, saying I’ve worked as a therapist with a number of people suffering from aftereffects of abuse. But for Rachel, who dares me to bare it all, I’ll answer — just this once.
Yes.
And,
no.
Yes, I was the victim of a one-time, opportunistic encounter with a teenaged boy at the beach when I was seven years old. He made me do things to him I can’t quite remember and don’t care to; but his threats against my family if I told were what terrified me. Yes, I was also the victim of intermittent physical and emotional abuse by my alcoholic dad.
And, no.
No, because neither of those situations of abuse have defined me as an adult. But that doesn’t mean they haven’t heavily influenced my work as a therapist, someone who assists the healing of others—and even my decision to become a therapist (versus my first, vainglorious career dream of TV anchorwoman.)
And, those experiences have colored my writing. They are themes I find myself exploring again and again—the unfair wounding of children. The bold process of their overcoming—a fairly common occurrence with 1 out of 4 women a victim of sexual abuse by age 14, and 1 out of 6 men (LiveScience 12/09).
One of the things I wanted to do with Orchids was show the process of therapy with a sexual abuse survivor, how severe the PTSD symptoms of child abuse can be for an adult woman, and how healing comes—sometimes in leaps of freedom with a trained therapist (such as Dr. Wilson who works with Lei) and sometimes in the slow dawning of a new day with a loving partner (whom she is also blessed with.)
In my own life, I’ve had both too.
But really, that’s not what Orchids is about. The book is about overcoming, and the power of love to heal, and yes, the bad guys get their just desserts—and it’s damn entertaining, the kind of book that I enjoy reading and can handle. In real life, so often the bad guys get away with it.
In spite of that, we still can be more than survivors—I’m a thriver. And I think my clients can be too.
Do I like my work every day? Hell, no. My clients’ suffering still moves me, and the day it doesn’t I better hang up my therapy shingle. Here’s a poem I wrote about it:
Datebook of a Therapist/Writer by Toby Neal
My life goes by, a book of little boxes
Penciled names and times containing
No hint of the stories–
The sorrows, compulsions, memories, grief,
The rage, depression, drugs, abuse. . .
Just little boxes filled with names and times. I wish they
Left no mark on me but
They do.
I witness the stories
I hold the box of secrets
I hear the songs:
street rap full of fuck you
ukulele ballads spun out of loss
Some are just broken poetry cut into arms
or tattooed names of stillborn children.
I take those stories and weave them into new
I make them fiction and put them somewhere else
My alter ego kills rapists and imprisons pedophiles
She patrols the streets of my imagination making them safer
A big Rottweiler by her side and a gun in her hand.
In real life I pass a box of tissues. It’s
Never enough but I guess
It’s better than no one ever knowing the stories
At all.
*
So. I’ve chosen the best revenge for a dysfunctional childhood—a life well lived, fully occupied, making the world a better place one day at a time.
I think Dr. Wilson, my fictional therapist alter ego, would approve.
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About Toby Neal:
Toby Neal was raised on Kauai in Hawaii. She wrote and illustrated her first story at age five and has been published in magazines and won several writing contests. After initially majoring in Journalism, she eventually settled on mental health as a career and loves her work, saying, “I’m endlessly fascinated with people’s stories.”
She enjoys many outdoor sports including bodyboarding, scuba diving, beach walking, gardening and hiking. She lives in Hawaii with her family and dogs.
Toby credits her counseling background in adding depth to her characters–from the villains to Lei Texeira, the courageous and vulnerable heroine in the Lei Crime Series.
Purchase Blood Orchids here (again, available free on Amazon today only!) no Kindle required.
also, check out Toby’s website!
http://www.tobyneal.net/
Thanks as always for your attention and we welcome comments directed to Toby or I below. Follow Toby on Twitter at @TobyWNeal or myself at both @RachelintheOC or my new social media consulting Twitter stream @BadRedheadMedia where I give out free Twitter tips throughout the day.
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New post dropped tonight by author @tobywneal — Challenged her to go deep, be real. She DELIVERS: http://t.co/8vZnYEwX #whoa
Wow. This was a great interview/post. Very intriguing, makes me both excited to read the book and scared. I think that’s good.
Brave.
Becky, my sweet friend. Lovely to see you here! {{hugs}}
Toby’s book is amazing. I have to say, Toby and I met a few years back online and have stayed in touch. I knew she was writing. I saw her go through the ins and outs of querying, deciding to go indie pub, and learning social media. All along, she’s been there for her patients, this calming presence. I’m in awe and so proud of her talent. You will be pleased.
Amazing interview Toby and Rachel. I always seem to learn more every time I read another interview with you! It makes me want to read your book even more. Thank you for “going there” with this interview. I have even more respect for you than I did before.
I admire the fact you have not allowed these events to define you as an adult, which is a lot easier said than done. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us here.
Great post – and I’ll definitely have to get the book. I’m a thriver too and really love that term suits much better than survivor 🙂
Great post! The statistics on abuse aren’t going to get any better until people learn to triumph over their pain and use it to turn themselves into a force to be reckoned with. We are only now entering the generation of survivors who are being taught, “You did nothing wrong. You can survive this and thrive.” Generations past were taught that their abuse made them dirty and were taught to squash it down deep and never think of it again. That is the mentality that perpetuates abuse. Thanks for digging down deep!
#MentionMonday I challenged @tobywneal to go real or go home. She more than stepped up: http://t.co/NMfD7QFk #SURVIVOR
To turn the horrid sides of ones’ life into something positive such as a shocking story well told, is an ability few people have.
It is a heavy burden to carry Toby, and I wish you continue to process it positively and to help as many people as you can in the process.
Touching interview, Rachel.
Well done gals 🙂
Toby, great interview. Loved how you have not let the events of your childhood define you as an adult. Thanks for sharing your story.
It’s always a pleasure to get to know you better, Toby, even if the revelations aren’t shiny and pretty. We all have things in our past that we have to overcome. It’s awesome that you’ve taken those experiences and funneled them into not one, but two successful careers. You’re truly a woman to be admired!
RT @RachelintheOC: #MentionMonday I challenged @tobywneal to go real or go home. She more than stepped up: http://t.co/NMfD7QFk #SURVIVOR
#MentionMonday @tobywneal, author of BLOOD ORCHIDS is my impressive guest today http://t.co/84gaP8Td Plz RT #noholdsbarred
Toby, thank you for such an open and honest conversation. I picked up my copy of Blood Orchids this weekend.
RT @RachelintheOC: #MentionMonday I challenged @tobywneal to go real or go home. She more than stepped up: http://t.co/NMfD7QFk #SURVIVOR
Toby, I commend your bravery at revealing some painful things about your past. It’s terrible what happened, but just look at you! You rose above and shine brighter than many people I know on or offline. I admire you greatly.
Amazing interview. The book sounds very brave too. Looking forward to picking that one up. Thank you for sharing.
The world of the internet is amazing. It’s all out there, all the time, and I’m finding there’s freedom in sort of walking around naked. *laughs*
Thanks so much for the wonderful supportive comments. I especially love that survivor can become thriver–and that hope needs to be extended to all victims of abuse and neglect. That is my mindset when working with clients, and they can’t say I don’t know what I’m talking about.
Your supportive comments move me so much as I head out to work, and my list of little boxed names filled with tough stories. I hope Lei’s story moves you too!
Much aloha
Toby
RT @rachelintheoc: #MentionMonday SURVIVOR: A THRIVER a beautiful, stunning guest post by author @tobywneal http://t.co/7B0Ltclp Plz RT
RT @RachelintheOC: #MentionMonday SURVIVOR: A THRIVER a beautiful, stunning guest post by author @tobywneal http://t.co/QYrZzpWt Plz RT
Powerful post -past events needn’t make4a bad life SURVIVOR: A THRIVER SPEAKS guest author Toby Neal http://t.co/9YiNiMBA via @rachelintheoc
RT @RachelintheOC: #MentionMonday I challenged @tobywneal to go real or go home. She more than stepped up: http://t.co/NMfD7QFk #SURVIVOR
Toby thank you very much for sharing your story, and your book’s journey, with Rachel in the OC and her many fans who find her blog a sanctuary or peaceful oasis that shuts out the clamor of the outside world. I cannot wait to read Blood Orchids. Surviving and thriving stays in my head.
Awesome, Justin! Rachel said you and Erica set the standard for the level of authenticity she wanted on the blog. I look forward to getting to know you through your writing.
Much aloha
Toby
SURVIVOR: A THRIVER SPEAKS by guest author Toby Neal http://t.co/9YiNiMBA via @rachelintheoc
SURVIVOR: A THRIVER SPEAKS by guest author Toby Neal. http://t.co/VBLFmJkv via @RachelintheOC