By Laurie Hollman, Ph.D.
They all finally flew out the door on time. When I could hear the bus roll up the street, I felt some relief. They would be gone soon. I proceeded cautiously with some hesitation, so I wouldn’t forget anything they needed before they left. But I didn’t know how long I could mask my strain as I steeled myself impatiently waiting for the house to empty. I love using healthy supplements to treat the chronic pain in my body and also helps with my anxiety at the same time, check out these meticore real reviews.
Cole had been trailing at my heels always in reach. I was desperate to escape the scrutiny of sensitive Lara. I didn’t think I could elude her close examination. I know she detects something. Oh, not to be there for her when I can hardly be here for myself. But, okay now; they’re gone. My jaws ache terribly on both sides, pressing inward. The prickling heat of my face keeps me ablaze, a heat that betrays that I’m all right. I try to relieve the pressure in my chest by holding my hand over my heart as if to slow it. I’ve felt this wretched pain for too many days. With Remedial Massage Brisbane you can relax your back muscles and feel relief. On and off. My upper body is under siege. I’m surprised I am able to walk, even run up the stairs. Learn more about natural probiotics at https://www.riverfronttimes.com/stlouis/1md-complete-probiotics-platinum-reviews-must-read-before-trying/Content?oid=34729691.
How can I be both weary and tense?
I can’t stop the feeling of threat. I glance in the mirror in the front hall. Delicate lines mark my cheeks and forehead. I’m strangely removed from the reflection, astonished to see a youthful face with clear, deep set, dark brown eyes. I recognize those eyes staring back at me recording my fears in a way that makes me turn away. I definitely need the CBD lotion on LA Weekly list I read about, it can help me reduce my stress levels and I also suffer from back pain, so I can kill two birds with one stone. Visit https://thehealthmania.com/best-prenatal-vitamins-of-2021/7022/ for more healthy supplements like the best prenatal vitamins.
There’s a knock at the door. Startled, I don’t move so I’m not seen through the window. Only for my children can I hold up the charade today. Who’s ever at the door can just go away. Using CBD flower can reduce those awful anxiety attacks and at the same time improve your sleeping schedule. There. It’s quiet again. The knocking rocked me though. I needed my CBD Ointment to reduce my anxiety and a few minutes to recover.
Oh, tell me, dear me, how to gather myself. Sitting very still, letting my shoulders rest—that helps.
There’s no harm in taking advantage of this time alone. I can’t always be productive. Thank goodness for delta 8 gummies 300mg. There’s no shame in taking time to care for myself. No, no shame.
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. is a psychoanalyst working with many anxious mothers that led to her writing this column. She has a new book, Unlocking Parental Intelligence: Finding Meaning in Your Child’s Behavior, on amazon and barnes & noble. Learn more about Dr. Hollman at http://lauriehollmanphd.com; https://twitter.com/lauriehollmanph
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Sarah Fader says
January 17, 2016 at 2:07 pmPowerful brave story. I can relate.
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. says
January 18, 2016 at 12:35 pmSarah, Thank you for your reply about being brave. That says it all with great empathy.
If you are a working mother and would like to be in my series on Career and Motherhood for Huffington Post, an interview series where I profile successful women under the radar, let me know at http://lauriehollmanphd.com.
Best,
Laurie
Wendy Garfinkle says
January 17, 2016 at 2:18 pmI’m in this place so often. My son is almost 15 and still I fight with anxiety each morning I have to rouse him for school, the thing he dislikes most as a teenager. Between my anxiety & depression and his ADHD & Asperger’s, mornings are almost always the hardest part of the day for me. My favorite mornings are the ones when there’s no school. I can let him sleep and enjoy the quiet, non-confrontational start to my day.
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. says
January 18, 2016 at 12:38 pmSounds like you really are faced with a lot each morning. I hope my piece touched you in a way that made you feel understood. As the commentor above noted, you are a brave mother.
I wonder if you are a working mother as well. If so, I would love to write about you in my HuffPost series on career women walking the tightrope with motherhood. Let me know at htttp://lauriehollmanphd.com and we can correspond about it.
Best wishes to you.
Laurie
Mary Rowen says
January 17, 2016 at 3:36 pmAs a mom with anxiety, I relate to this. My anxiety manifests in different ways and at different times of the day, but anxiety is anxiety and it sucks. Thank you for sharing this.
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. says
January 18, 2016 at 12:40 pmMary, You’re welcome. I hope this piece helped you feel a bit more understood and less alone with your anxiety. If you are a working mother, perhaps you would like to consider being part of my series on Career and Motherhood for HuffPost. If you would contact me at http://lauriehollmanphd.com and we can correspond about it.
Best wishes and hang in there,
Laurie
Melissa says
January 17, 2016 at 5:44 pmI can absolutely relate. One child has anxiety and the other with Autism. Most days are good, but the bad days can be unbearable.
There is no shame in admitting that life isn’t perfect and like you said there is no shame in taking time for yourself. ♡
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. says
January 18, 2016 at 12:42 pmYes, Melissa, please take time for yourself. You sound like a valiant mother. I hope the piece felt empathic for you. If you are also a working mother building a career and would like to be part of my series on Career and Motherhood for HuffPost, please contact me at http://lauriehollmanphd.com and we can correspond about you participating in it.
Best wishes,
Laure
C. Streetlights says
January 17, 2016 at 10:59 pmOh mercy… I know this feeling, lived this feeling. Mothering while anxious is one of the most taxing experiences — the pressure in the chest, the buzzing in my ears and racing pulse — yes.
There’s absolutely no shame in taking those few quiet moments to ourselves. We have to.
Thank you for your honesty.
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. says
January 18, 2016 at 12:53 pmC. Streetlights, I’m glad the piece touched you in a meaningful way. You described your anxiety so well, I can feel it. Please do take time to yourself.
If you are a career mother and would like to participate in a series I’m writing for HuffPost on Career and Motherhood let me know by contacting me at http://lauriehollmanphd.com and we can correspond about it.
Best wishes,
Laurie
Lisa Shambrook says
January 18, 2016 at 6:33 amI feel this so much. And my children (now almost all adults) have been sensitive to my anxiety, which sometimes is welcome but often overwhelming and makes me feel guilt on top of the anxiety… And, those moments, I’ve backed slowly away, out of view, as someone walks up the steps to my house.
Beautifully written, thank you x
Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. says
January 18, 2016 at 12:56 pmLisa, Thanks for your comment. You’re very welcome. I know what you’re saying about how guilt piles up on top of the anxiety. I understand how overwhelming that can be. Thanks for your honesty. You’re a brave mother to weather it all.
If you are a working mother and would like to be part of my series on HuffPost about women walking the tightrope between careers and motherhood, let me know by contacting me at http://lauriehollmanphd.com and we can correspond about it.
Best wishes,
Laurie
Kimmie says
January 18, 2016 at 3:03 pmI know this place… Iv’e been there too. This is a powerful (beautifully written) piece. Relatable. Thank you for sharing.